August 22st 2023
Thornville OH
So I have conflicting feelings
I had the best time ever at both Elements and Secret Dreams
The sets were gas, I actually got to enjoy myself, and I ended up getting to display my product line
For Elements Music Fest I saw a friend on Facebook offering a free ticket
I liked the post and I ended up getting a DM
I said I would deff give bathroom breaks and help if needed
I dunno I just ended up helping cus it didn’t feel right not to
Plus his people ended up bailing so I kinda filled in whatever gap I could
The first event went well so he ended up asking if I would do Secret Dreams the following weekend
I did a work exchange with Stone Groove Goods and I got to set up the product line in their booth for Secret Dreams
That’s honestly the only reason I worked so many hours for them
I thought we were building a relationship based on mutual respect
I was wrong…
There were a few weird moments where he was like letting people confuse me for his girlfriend and was like trying out that feeling so I kept shutting it down right away. He low key got offended which was also weird.
We ended up going to see Papadosio and Dopa Pod with as group of other vendor friends but homeboy kept saying how guilty he felt for being “out”
That was a huge red flag for me because he was having a very different experience from what I was having and that’s always scary (perception is reality)
After the events were over he kept sending music and I knew he was trying to connect but I wasn’t
He 100 percent has a girlfriend of 8 years
After I vended The Homie Campout Collective as EZ LIFE he hit me with an “I’m in love with you” text message
He called right after sending it and it was weird… It sounded like he was hiding in his car and talking really low so he wouldn’t be heard. It also felt like he called so there wouldn’t be any messages to find…
He said his girlfriend knew about his feeling towards me but I feel like that was a lie
I 1000 percent told him NO to all of it.
I told him his feelings were a by product of his substance choices of last weekend mixed with the alcohol
He was just chemically imbalanced…
His feelings were not reciprocated and I was genuinely trying to build a professional relationship
I was not in a great place financially so I tried to forgive and forget cus we planned for Lost Lands and Hulaween and I really wanted to vend those shows.
I promise you that ends up biting me in the ass later
Men are weird. Hind sight is 20/20 and knowing what I know now I should have cut off this relationship here.
* I also want to add I was calling this man the wrong name both weekends…His mannerisms were similar to Rob from Spunglasses and I kept calling him Rob. He also kept forgetting that I was doing that cus alcohol.
Until Next Time <3
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