July 29th 2023
Austin Texas
Okay so I was burned out after my last event
I ended up applying to do a work exchange on this bus farm that I found through Tok Tok
I met this couple in real life briefly super briefly at The Caverns and thought it would be safe enough
I stopped at Gym and Lisa’s on my way to Austin because they happened to live really close to the Business cub that I made one of my stopping points
I didn’t realize visiting them was an option but I’m so happy my Dad pushed me to say hi.. I loved getting to catch up
While I was in Houston someone deff tried to break into my car and that kind of put me on edge
When I got to Austin it was hot as ballllsssss!!!
I ended up not doing the work exchange thing and paid not even a lot to stay until I had to leave for Everwild
I thought it was weird that the arrangement changed but it also freed up all my time so I really didn’t care
I think I was there for like 2 and a half weeks
Barton Springs was my favorite spot and I pretty much lived there most of the time I was there
Meeting new people was cool but the bus farm was weird af.
Just a bunch of 20 something’s experiencing psychidellics for the first time…
The people who have lived there longer deff dabble more than little and the people that come in from the internet are deff are just being introduced to them for the first time (it was cringapotimus to watch)
The energy was weird because the girls that come through are 100 percent there to meet Theo but he has a girlfriend so the vibes was a little icky
Riding in the bus was cool and we did Tumble Tech on Wednesdays which I loved so much
The conversations were so fun but honestly some of the stories that were shared about Saylah were kinda messed up
I sometimes need my own space to process wtf is happening so spng floors and back walk overs helped get my mind right
After Tumble Tech we would go to Wub Wednesdays as a group too and that was lit
The DJ entrovert was sooooooo freaking good
I smoked so much and tried to chill but the boy energy on the property was so chaotic and on mushrooms like the whole time lol
I went to my first drum circle and that was a vibe
The batons were fun and the energy was super chaotic
Pretty sure at one point we jumped a fence for no freaking reason and I deff have a mark on my booty from that
I try to tell myself not to do stupid shit because I am accident prone but then sometimes all my braincells disappear and I do things that are borderline dangerous and could fuck my body up dirty
There were some cool people staying on the property and I enjoyed getting to connect with and meet new people
I got to air out some of my Michael anger and honestly I hope he never comes up in my thoughts again.
I was enjoying the company so much I eneded up letting Theo talk me I to emptying my car and using it for our Wednesday field trip
I was shocked at myslef when I said yes because I never allow passengers
I’m low key traumatized after letting Michael travel with me and I just keep people out for safety reasons
I feel like I made a new social script and kinda rewired that part of my brain so I don’t have to feel fear anymore.
One of the days we went to one of Theos friends houses and ended up helping him paint.
I used that my time to really reflect.
I ended up spinning fire that night and feel like with that burn I released anything left in me in regards to my past relationship. I didn’t want to be carrying it with me anymore.
One of the last excursions was with like 4 of us and I had too much fun
I deff busted ass at one point but that’s to be expected….
The water was so crispy
The last night I was there Theo point blank told me him and Saylah weren’t together anymore and I felt like that was supposed to be a segue into something but I’m not in my early twenties anymore and something felt so cringey so I was jus like ohhhhhhhh
I knew something was off when he was low key talking shit about her and passing it off as a funny story
He told some of the most fucked up stories about her so casually I was just like damn
There’s something weird happening over there and I’m not about it
Honestly I don’t have time to care
Getting everything back in my car was a bitch
Heading to Everwild next and am excited to set up my booth and don’t feel so burned out like I did when I first got here:)
Until Next Time <3
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